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a lot of these "professionals" feel like im reading ChatGPT outputs with system prompt something about neutrality, unopinionated, linkedin, blah blah blah,, kind of sad how having an opinion, a view, politics, criticism is seen as "bad" by some
my brain kinda does stuff
when a problem is difficult i only finds ways to put more effort into it, exhaust it, make it more difficult, nitpick every detail -- this aspect is visible all througout my academic work ( 1 problem turns into much more ) AND things like stances on social issues ( like 1 problem is led by institutional critique, but is that really so bad ),,,,,, i enjoy complexity and being detailed, though it can sometimes bite me in the butt and cost me burnout ( like living in a constant work -> burnout -> work cycle ), sanity, time, energy, correctness, harshness, rationale, ... --- some of it could probably be resolved by chilling out but when i do try to chill out i begin thinking of other ideas, errors i could fix, something i could implement, something i could write, something i could do, etc. i begin recursing into a graph of never-ending subproblems, which causes me to act on them -- and by not acting i kinda feel neglectful, saccus vacuus, or simply unfulfilled / unhappy, maybe im just destined to Do Stuff
well anyway kind of what thoughts came up from a long conversation i had in regards to my schedule
also in similar vein idk i kinda feel like im wasting time in uni a lot of the time but i cant wait for second semester wherein i am hopefully faced w more difficulty, but also were only a month in so maybe im just overestimating, tho im kinda bored in classes not bc topic boring but bc i already know, i feel like a future teller when i see a slide
"doing stuff" my whole life has stripped away the joy of learning that stuff now </3 oh well
anyw im def not the busiest person on the planet, id say far far from it, but i do just do stuff very intensely just as i feel, act, and express -- in this sense im also not like still water
i like cats
Note that the meeting will have to happen in two parts because jitsi has a 1.5 hour limit on moderated calls I just found out about :(
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Reminder: today, 17:00 my time I will be giving a 3-hour long talk about mathematics for programming. Primarily focusing on terminology, systematic problem solving approaches, mathematical/boolean logic, notation, a bit of algebra, and functions.
did not sleep
400+ mg caffeine
so many mathematical proofs
so much code
so much mathematical logic
so much C
so much asm
so much mathematics
so much everything
fun tho
I CAN TELL TIME HAS PASSED BY THE WASH OF YOUR DENIM
THE BLUE NEVER LASTS, BUT IT DOESNT FADE FOR ME
IT DOESNT FADE FOR ME
YEAH, I CAN TELL THAT YOUVE CHANGED, YOURE SO INDEPENDENT
YOU CARRY YOURSELF IN A WAY NOW THATS BETTER TO SEE
YEAH, ITS BETTER THAN ME
I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONG
THANK YOU GIRL IN RED
OCTOBER IS THE QUEENS MONTH
I SUCCUMB
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
you know every single day i do way too much my brain feels like smooth mush after everyday, and sleeping 0-6 hours a day is probably also not healthy, i should chill out
there are a surprising amount of queer people in vilnius and communities too -- ive been volunteering / getting involved in 3 of them :D its pretty nice how i found my people
a few years ago i thought all of lithuania was shit in regards to queer things, though at least vilnius can serve as a sprinkle on a pile of manure, which is better than nothing :p
at least now when i go out i dont get death or other violent threats directed at me AND i found people to coexist with without the need to excuse myself for existing
my hometown is so no in comparison, never going back to that hell xD hopefully never at least, maybe for my cat someday
oh cool its been nearly a year of this microblog https://ari.lt/mblog/post/1
you, people, have seen me transition from 12th grade hell to university, thank you for being here !!
i started this microblog at such a transitional period of my life, this will be so interesting to come back to in like 4-5 years
also 6 years of ari-web is coming up too - october 18th, so in a week LITERALLY
so many transitions, anniversaries, etc, zammerz
I like how you don't have to lather yourself in lard and rewrite every piece of software in Rust to have a Spleen. Gets me clapping my hands together like one of those monkey things
i love webmentions maybe i should implement sth like that on my microblog so people could actually interract with my posts outside of mere reactions AND encourage others to abandon modern microblogging platforms for /mblog pages cuz who needs twitter / mastodon / akkoma / bluesky / tweet when u got the indie web
everyday i see so many cute couples,,, when will the universe put me in a situation with a Normal guy 🥀 i should hand out business cards -- Arija - professional hopeless romantic